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although i told my friends im happy. i can only share this to you! my little anime world... (haba ng pangalan niya) well, just now i told my friends i was happy. but recently im not although "kilig" seems happy it's not! only a part of it is happy not through out!

gosh! it's hard to be far away. far away from your friends. when you don't know what's happenin to them. you wanna go there and help them but how can you? by the time your there the issue is done and gone. so how can you help when your far away? even though to you it doesnt seem it, it hurts. well, just try and go in y situation. where your friends are wanting help but how can you? your far away from them. if you go there do you think you would be able to help? no! it would be too late and a waste of time. you go there to see someone cry, but now you see someone happy. a friend that was already helped by someone even though you said you were going to be there for her or him? isn't it just painful. even though those persons doesn't know that you wanted to help, they would still remember in their times of sorrow. my meaning of friend is to always be there with a friend, through happy times and through bad times. whatever it takes. by this i don't know how can i be a friend to them if i can't even be with them even if it's just a simple "how are you?"

every time i feel one of them is sad and the other is comforting her or him. i feel "hey! i can help! wait for me?!" but they can't! they can't cause the person whose suffering would suffer longer. so how can i help. i am being left out and being replaced! do you know how much this hurts. i already know what it feels being replaced and i don't want to feel that feeling again. i want to help them! that's my why of showing that i am your friend. to help you in your times of need. so, if i can't do that? does that mean i'm not your friend? i dont want that! i want to be your friend. so can i be!? just say it to me! what's happenin? im there. can't you feel my prescence?!? it's really hard for me and no matter how i look for a good side, there's none! this feeling i feel is a total sadness. not even a single chuckle would be caught on action. cause im your friend and i dont want to loose that! i dont want to. call me, ofline message me, text me whatever it takes just do it! if you really want to be my friend you would do this! cuase im feeling left out here! with you people talking about something i don't know then in a moment your crying and i don't even know how to help. how can i be my ideal friend to you? so, please i don't want to be an emoshit bastard again! i just recovered like a day ago. i really wanna keep my current relation with you! i realy do!

weird thing may happen!

have you ever experienced "dejavu" it feels like i have. i don't really know if this happened days ago or in my dreams. if you have i completely understand the weirdness.

maybe days, weeks, months or maybe years before this certain event happened. it felt like it happened before but when i ask them if this kinda thing seemed like it already happened they answer no. listen this is really the only time i open up like this. it really feels weird. for example the latest "weird thing" that happened to me is today. so here goes.

this day, september 17,2008. it was the cheerdance competition day. so at around our 2nd period subject was about to start but our teacher never came in because he knew that we were gonna practice for the cheer dance competition. around that time my seatmate asked if her jacket was too big for her because it was her mom's. so i said the truth. yes. it is too big for you. but i didn't say it in a rude way. so i said wanna exchange jackets? so we exchanged and felt better. i like the color of her jacket and she likes the size of my jacket. both happy. so when i looked at her after fixing the jacket. she looked kinda familiar. like i have seen her in that jacket before. then i asked her. (in tagalog ofcourse) have you worn that jacket? she said no this was her 1st time to wear my jacket. so that kept me thinking if it was a dream or maybe she has a jacket that looks like mine. she said no. so i came to think wether i saw it in a dream or i don't know.
in my dream kind of different not exactly the same but she wore that jacket. i saw her around 3-6 times in that jacket. as accurate as i can remember, the other dreams were like, she was borrowing a light brown jacket and that's what i had so i handed it to her. then it looked kinda familiar. that's the only thing i remembered.
for me it's really weird and i'm not pointing out that i'm a phsycic or anything. it's just seemed so familiar. i know that most of you have experienced this, is yes please tell me your experience and what did you felt. i wanna know to keep my mind of thinking like this. also i'm sorr if most of the sentences are wrong grammar.

introducing me! (mostly about anime)

listen i know that other blogs are really deep. like my friend's visit iannarocker.blogspot.com and gan143.blogspot.com. it's good. mine isn't really like theirs because I'm not deep. so i hope you enjoy... well don't really know if someones reading this for his/her will. well i shall get started.


i will not say my name to keep mystery, but to my friends... hey! i don't really know how to express myself through blogs like this but i express myself through drawing, singing, and a lot of others stuff. i have many "habits" as i like to call it. i also call myself the specie "alyanna" has the habits of blah blah blah... and speaking of blahs i like typing or writing the word but i don't like saying it. another word i like to say is "ever eclabur" sometimes with chuvaness. i know it seems kinda gay but believe this I'm a girl! I'm making my own anime series about love and i haven't figured out what is the side story. you know like naruto, it's something about ninja and the side story of love. also the prince of tennis. the main story is tennis and the side story is love and comedy. what i like the most is la corda d'oro primo passo but it's kind of a short story. i don't whats the main or side but it's about Love's modesty and music. enough about this. i like candies and chocolates but mostly candies that are sweet and sour. i like caramel and the brand pick and mix. you can say that I'm a little bit vain cause i like fixing other people's hair. yahh!!! i only do girl talk if I'm talking about anime boys...( a little bit embarrassed) but, yah! i like talking about them their so cute and you can never find someone in the real world who's like them. cause most of the boys in anime have types.I'm only gonna state the popular types)there is a heartthrob who's cool and calm like sasuke uchiha from naruto, like len tsukimori from la corda, ryoma echizen from the prince of tennis and etc.there's the naughty but nice. (which kinds i really have a crush on)like kazuki hihara from la corda, kikumari eiji from the prince of tennis, i wouldn't really consider naruto uzamaki because i like neji more than him). there's also a quiet kinda type. like eaji from la corda, shino from naruto, etc. that's what kinda guys I'm gonna be putting in my anime. by the way I'm just a teenager. i have no interest in girl boy relationship. I'm not really that smart. i play instruments like the guitar, drums, pianos, bass, flute, organ and i wanna learn how to play the trumpet... i know you'll think I'm weird and i accept that. please leave a comment on what do you think i am or your first impression. be harsh if you need to be harsh but please don't put bad words!


thank you all for reading this. if somebody is reading it!... hahaha....



P.S.- if your going to leave a comment please include what your suggestion to the side story and the title... i like something Japanese in it... T.Y.